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I identify with this story strongly my abuse was, mostly was psychological and financial  torment, by my foster "carer" although I witnessed the others hit more and I got out within two years because I was already in my late teens when I was placed with her. I still think about it decades later but you have to believe in yourself, that it was not your fault at all . http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2697938/She-fed-cat-food-whipped-kept-wheelchair-claim-benefits-Now-sadistic-mother-freed-prison-Victoria-Evans-28-terror-again.html?offset=0&max=100#comment-59478890

               I planned some of my dreams...hard to let go...

it’s interesting that many men of science were also men of God. Here's a short list: Rene Descartes Sir Isaac Newton Michael Faraday Gregor Mendel Johannes Kepler . . . Even Albert Einstein And look at all of their accomplishments combined! It’s amazing what things people can do when they have discipline and guidance in their lives. I believe this is now the problem with our society, that the mainstream culture rejects God, and plays on the "Separation of Church and State" clause of the First Amendment to assert their beliefs whilst firmly repressing those of others. For example, in some states atheists have asserted that a bill should be passed to omit the portion of our nation's pledge of allegiance, because it says "one nation under God." However, our nation's motto is and has been for a long time, "In God We Trust." The fail to realize that the state (nation) simply cannot mandate a state (national) religion. It does not, however,...

Hussey, makes valid point @2.50

I just heard this song today and it is so adorable.

  Humans of New York   creator and photographer Brandon Stanton spoke to a sold out crowd at Eisenhower Auditorium Thursday night. "There are so many people that use 'following your dreams' as an excuse to not work," he said. "When in reality, following your dreams, successfully, is nothing but work."  

legalize medical marijuana

Other genre’s of music allow for credited songwriters and ghostwriters why not hip-hop the thing not everybody is skilled writing incredible lyrics some rappers are more skilled at delivery no shame in that, not everyone is a freestyle rapper.

  I am determined to learn how to fully execute a push up

Showing my age, this was my song. I've had a fragment of this song stuck in my head since childhood. I searched for that snippet of lyrics and found this song again. Thanks, YouTube! 

R.I.P Jimi Jamison lead singer of Survivor famous for ‘Eye Of The Tiger’ I love this song I remember as a little girl watching Rocky hearing tune and feeling powerful and pumped even though it was just a movie LOL a powerful tenor no matter how many times I tried to sing this song I could not match Jimi amazing vocal run.

                                    Your contract and your record deal is up to your due diligence. Explains a lot I have always wondered how these musical artists sell tons of records only to end up broke and penniless ten years down the line.

These girls think they're Kim K or Paris Hilton...make a sex tape and get famous, but Kim K and Paris Hilton don't live in the real world, they have the financial buffer to weather any kind of blow back, what these girls don't realize is with or without that sex tape kim comes from wealth she would have been fine either way regular girls get a few stacks then it's on to the next "amateur chick"  I don't hate on the adult entertainment world , I believe that people have the right to chose how they experience their own humanity, what folks need to realize is that porn is a business like any other business,   I'm not for porn for different reasons, Human trafficking, abuse, exploiting those that are mentally unhealthy ie; coming from broken homes, sexual molestation, physical abuses etc that's what turns my stomach about porn. Not to mention the men that become addicted and have unrealistic views of women.   Aylssa  Fun...

 OMG I have only just heard of London Grammer, I love em Hannah Ried is ten times better than Lana Del Rey

 showing my age but I remember when this my jam

        Knowing what to ignore.                         Joel Osteen Every battle, that comes across our path is, not a battle we are supposed to fight, many battles are simply distractions, to try to lure us of course, if that battle is not between you and your God given destiny it’s a battle you should ignore it, that person at the office that’s always getting on your nerves , making sarcastic comments you can either get in there, and try to fight that battle and strengthen them out if you do you are wasting valuable   time and energy that you should be using to pursue your dreams. It’s a Distraction ignore it....................... It very freeing, when you realise you do not have to fight every battle.

‘Capitalism is the system, so you might as well learn the rules and win it’ Jordan Belfort

Guilt is a useless emotion because it does not require any action. What good is a guilty child abuser or a guilty murderer? Not only does guilt make a situation ALL ABOUT THE PERSON AND THEIR SORROWS, it is as useless an emotion as pity. It forces victimized thinking and cognitive dissonance, and even illusions.

They gotta point,

The FIVE PRINCIPLES are: 1. Focus on language content that is relevant to you. 2. Use your language as a tool to communicate from day 1. 3. When you understand the message you will acquire the language unconsciously, i.e comprehensible input (Krashen, et al) 4 . Language is not about accumulating a lot of knowledge but is rather a type of physiological training. 5 . Psycho-physiological state matters – you need to be happy, relaxed, and most importantly, you need to be tolerant of ambiguity. Don’t try to understand every detail as it will drive you crazy. The SEVEN ACTIONS are: 1. Listen a lot – it doesn’t matter if you understand or not. Listen to rhythms and patterns. 2. Focus on getting the meaning first, before the words. Body language and facial expressions can help. 3. Start mixing, get creative, and use what you’re learning 4. Focus on the core – the most commonly-used words, and use the language to learn more (What is this/that? How do you say ? etc.)...

I am going to un-victimize myself and move forward, I am going to let go of what happened to me and move forward.

My goals are to become a nurse and establish an income from property.

Arnold Schwarzenegger is my hero Not because he's the greatest bodybuilder in the world and not because of his movies, but that he is a foreigner who came to America and found success with hard work and dedication that made him overcome his challenges and obstacles. I believe by working hard in everything you want to do, you will succeed. By success, it doesn't mean becoming a wealthy and world-famous movie star, but achieving what you wanted through hard work and dedication and being admired by people. 1. Trust Yourself 2. Break the Rules! (not the laws) 3. Don't be afraid to fail! 4. Don't listen to the naysayers! 5. Work your butt off! 6. Give back!

people do not realize that these foster parentS gets monthly allowance for these kids and that money is to be spent on the child only clothes, shoes school things My Foster carer did not want to give up any financial benefits that would be entailed having me and sister in her care, social services where paying her IN EXCESS of £4000 a month to have us in her care. Social work is easy qualification to get social worker is the easiest job to get so basically ANYONE can be one and many hardships due to the fucked up system meaning the social workers who don't do their job, who just turn a blind eye or try to mindfuck you into thinking you're telling lies about your situation just to make their job easier, RIP bABY P Last week I went to report my former foster carer at the police station for child abuse and neglect someTHING that happened well over a decade ago people may say let it go BUT i CANNOT THIS BEAST ABUSED AND EXPOILTED ME FOR MONEY, i WAS WRONGED SEVERELY AND i HAVE A R...

Yep, I am finally learning what a mortgage is LOL

I have just found out about this guy from watching Dr Phil. J.R. Martinez is the man, on 5 th April 2003 age 19 J.R.Martinez,   whilst on tour in Iraq, sustained 3 rd degree burns to 33% of his body   3:00min ‘I just made a choice in that moment you know what life goes on I don’t know what the purpose of this is, but if I have a good attitude, and stay positive and continue to smile every single day, something good will happen to me’

What I realize at this late age in my life , is that I have nothing to lose. I’m at Rock Bottom . Everyone just despises me, so I can be unapologetically detached and set myself free to life and adventure or I can let phantom friends and family exploiters who hate me and place no value on me. It's up to me and I for one say fuck it my own best interest is at hand, you wanna hate on me for simply existing’ well ‘fuck you’

Y’all will know by now, that I love TED talks I am a TED addict, lonliness is dangerous, It is dangerous for the member of the social species to be and feel isolated. When you feel lonely recognise the feeling and do not deny it recognise what is does to your body and brain be aware and understand those effects and then respond get connected, sharing good times speak to elderly people Ostraism ignites the same pain receptors as physical torture

Can you believe I have two copies of Dominic O’Brien’s (Eight Times World Memory Champion) ‘How to develop a Brilliant Memory Week by Week’ book a one brought from Amazon in 2011 and the other book from WHSmith in Dec 2013, it is the same book that Memory Master Idriz Zogaj is speaking about in this TED talk, who only started training his memory at 25, now I am not trying be no memory athlete but even my foggy brain got some neurons in it, hey I might be able to get my 30+ year old brain to finally remember my times tables, I am gonna practice my memory. ** 9/5/14 update: in regards to my memory training well I have done ‘ zilch, nada, sweet nothing’ quite typical of me allowed myself to get distracted, those books are sitting in work bag getting squashed and covered in bisquit(sp) crumbs ** http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2768028/Seven-decks-cards-memorised-day-1-500-digits-recited-aloud-4-5-years-training-How-man-legendary-memory-champion-improve.html

This video really speaks to me as I have been bullied my whole life from my mother, to my foster carers, my teachers and literally anybody it forced me to turn in on myself and spent the first two decades telling myself it will get better and will have a ‘Cinderella moment’ and someone will save me from my loneliness and heartbreak, I went through suicidal moments and towards the   my third decade of life I came to a very sad realization I will always be an outsider, I have two options I can embrace it or reject it, I embrace really because I cannot reject how do reject the fact that people make fun of your obesity, smell, size of my nose (I have got a super hooter) and always leave you out of things and they fully conscious of their hurtful, I made a decision that no matter what other humans being do to me I still got my existence mean something to me (I can always say on my deathbed, I went Zorbing lol) so desperate for human interaction I ended raped by a sex offender all war...

 I will purchase a saxaphone  and attempt to be lisa simpson

The best motivation speech in the world! Everybody share it on Facebook, Twitter ETC let the world see and be amazed!   This speech makes me question myself... Like when i am in deep depression i play this video and i start to wonder why am i such a weak shit and what the fuck am i going to achieve by crying and whinning. ‘no one will deny me, no one will define me’

 Good on ya girl!!! achieve your dreams this is your life