Ostracism ; A Scientific look at shunning & the effects on those ostraci...

This video really speaks to me as I have been bullied my whole life from my mother, to my foster carers, my teachers and literally anybody it forced me to turn in on myself and spent the first two decades telling myself it will get better and will have a ‘Cinderella moment’ and someone will save me from my loneliness and heartbreak, I went through suicidal moments and towards the  my third decade of life I came to a very sad realization I will always be an outsider, I have two options I can embrace it or reject it, I embrace really because I cannot reject how do reject the fact that people make fun of your obesity, smell, size of my nose (I have got a super hooter) and always leave you out of things and they fully conscious of their hurtful, I made a decision that no matter what other humans being do to me I still got my existence mean something to me (I can always say on my deathbed, I went Zorbing lol) so desperate for human interaction I ended raped by a sex offender all warning signs were there, but I was so blinded by the fact a person was taking and not making passive aggressive remarks about me that I ended up being raped I swear some of these sex offenders got ESP they spot their mark

I am glad I came through and at this stage in my life being the outsider is so much part of being me that it’s ok, I expect people to be mean to me, it does not mean it don’t hurt, but it’s expected, I can spot other outsiders and I am more empathic to other people.